this is just a fragmentary part of my life

Nearly snapped last night cause mom was frustrating me so terribly.
She has good intentions, I know that. She just wants to help. Heck.

I don’t know what to think or do anymore. For the past couple days I’ve been wanting to cry my eyes out. My heart just wants to rip itself out from my chest. There’s so much happiness happening around me, it touching, but it also breaks my heart. I can’t remember the last time I was looked at with appreciation by others. And perhaps there was a few I recall, but… let’s not talk about it.

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And love?! AUGH!

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I’m really under a lot of pressure. My mind is going 500mph and that’s fucking fast.
But I’m not showing it.
I need a hug. I need someone to get me a tissue because I’m crying a lot. These seem like very pathetic things to cry over, and you’re right. But this isn’t all. There are so many things I can’t post that are tearing my heart apart. Everything is just piling over another. I don’t need people to feel sorry for me, because no one did anything wrong. I just needed to get this out on some kind of document……………….

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Sorry but i needed to unwind. Goodbye.

~ by Lindi Wilkinson on October 29, 2009.