Luv you guyz!

Went out for early dinner at MOS burger together with Jasmine.

Tomorrow will be out at the city together with angela and people.
Luv you. Bye.

P/S: Angela luvs me. We are just pretending to be lesbians LOL

Angela enjoys taking pictures with my cam. Me too.

Oh baby, you’re a classic. Like a little black *bitchy* dress. Ooops, sorry!

You know what “little” troublemaker? (Using the word little loosely). You have not matured since 3 years ago, at least emotionally.
The way on how you start a conversation with someone can make me nauseate like crazy.
Fancy telling your friends that I was fucking my best friend.

This girl is a horrible gossip and has been known to stretch the truth, manipulate and *gasp* lie, to make someone she is jealous of look bad.
No one is immune if you haven’t realized.

She truly wanted me to go through hell, humiliation, embarrassment, and a life with no respect from people because she didn’t like me. Selfish. Petty. Immature. Sad. Pathetic.
Thankfully, it’s safe to say that she has yet to succeeed in any of her “endeavors.” People like this do not belong in professional organizations, especially ones with any degree of confidential information.

I do think that she is jealous of people who are better people, smarter, prettier, more family oriented – in short all the things she isn’t. If she wasn’t so sneaky, conniving, self-centered and just down right evil, I might feel bad for her lack of self-esteem. I do forgive her for the lies she attempted to spread about me, because I understand her shortcomings. I’m also very grateful that she took the liberty to start making me look bad to people whom I’m not familiar with, although I suspect an accomplice. I don’t think she is smart enough to have come up with this “ingenious” plan on her own. Gotta give her props for the level of deviousness she used. This took planning and pre-mediation. If she would apply herself to her work and her family with this level of dedication, I think she would be happy with the rewards. I have to question if she does have the emotional aptitude to behave as a grown-up, or if she is going to remain at that pre-teen mentality level for the rest of her life.

Just as an FYI: a “reasonable” person cannot identify any persons or religions discussed, this is my opinion, and furthermore is true and accurate to the best of my knowledge.

Pictures will be up at night. Going out with Angela, Charlotte and Eileen today. Goodbye.

P/S: I don’t feel angry. I am not angry. I’m just happy to know that you really love talking about me.

Today went out to Chinatown to meetup with zhenboon for breakfast! Thank you for the wonderful treat and steamboat for breakfast was a blast. Was really a very filling breakfast I must say.
After that went to amk’s k-pool. Saw Daryl and friends, chit chat for a while and helped mom with stuffs.
After that went to vivo to meet up with Angela and Charlotte. Angela brought one friend together with her.. and i was wondering.. Hmmmm ^^ HAHAHA

Over the past few years, I learn more and more everyday about people. People are ever changing, but some things seem to always be the same. People like to say things that sound good, but really don’t mean it. They usually contradict what they say out into their head. They like to tell you things you want to hear, but they will never follow through.
Isn’t it kind of ironic..?

One thing that seems to be constant is that people love to say they are “there for you” or “will do anything to help out” if you are going through a hard time or if they believe you are going through a hard time.

I guess I realized that most of the time, that is like human nature to say those things, but only a selected few and maybe no one in your life will really say that and truly mean it. ‘I will be there whenever you need me”.
Ok, maybe just one. JUST ONE person who can truly mean this. But as time goes by, you’ll eventually drift away from that person… and poof. You’re all alone again…
Maybe it is just me…
Yes I have met someone who truly meant this. But I’ve lost her. Just by recalling back what happened between me and her would just make my eyes well up. Again, I guess it is easy to say “it” and hard to do. In addition, “being there for you” is something I couldn’t trust anymore.

I think I can read people very well and usually am a good judge of people, but this aspect has me stumped. Who are the people that are your true friends/family? Who can you trust to always be there? Who is genuine when they say that want to help you or will be there?

Maybe it is because I feel I have been betrayed by the most important people in my life. I think I have truly seen and heard it all. If one thing can be said, I know, I am a strong person because I have been let down so many times, but at least I know how to pick myself up.

Once you have been betrayed by (a) friend(s), best friend(s), etc. You should know that there is not many left to trust. One thing I do is give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I trust first and maybe this is no longer the approach. I would like to think that everyone can be trusted, but it is just not the case.

So what do you do?? Who do you trust?? That is something you hope for, is that one person, but you have to keep your expectations in check.

Maybe there are people you can trust with only certain information. If this is the case, then you need to have people you can trust around you, just all on different levels. The tough part is, in order to share with others you need to find out the level of trust for each other.

We all need someone. Or many someones. You need to be able to share your successes as well as your failures with someone. Even if this is not the same person. I wish I knew how to answer this for myself or anyone else for that matter.

Sad thing to say is people change. What they said then, they believe they meant, but they did not. They felt they were being honest at the time. This is what hurts most. It is hard to understand why people change or how they change. Needless to say, yes I have been betrayed and it is one of those things that if you truly have that connection and it happens to you, you start to question a lot of things. You question, how you wasted so much of your time and energy in this person. You question how you could not see whatever this person did/ coming.

Why, why and more why(s)…

There are so many questions, but it never seem to have any answers to it own self, or at least not answers that help.

Who do you trust next?

I have ready lost someone, forever.
Maybe this is something that everyone has to learn on their own: Letting go.
This is such a hard pill to swallow.

Have you ever had that feeling that you are trying so extremely hard to reach someone else but they just keep moving away from your reach? That you have done everything you can do to be able to understand and get where they are, what was the source of their sadness or depression, and wanted it so much to be the one person to help them through it, and yet no matter what u do, you’re still failing. And failing at something you wanted so much, something you’d give your life to, is soo damn miserable.

Each time I realized I run short, I’m in tears. I cry as hard as I could if only it will make my frustration go away. I feel like i’m the most useless person on earth for not being able to make the person I love feel better.

I don’t know why I always end up trying so damn hard and still fail. I never wanted to care this much. I know it won’t do me good.

Why do I have mastery at accomplishing things that doesn’t mean half as much to me. And failing hopelessly at things that occupy my mind at all times.

I’m so tired of this, I don’t know how much more can I take of this miserable useless existence of not being able to make the people I love happy.

watching a lot of smosh videos lately.
feeling very upset about some trivial stuffs lately.
plotting an evil idea lately.
thinking that you’re really a mean bitch.
sick for a few days.
moody recently because of some douche bag.
getting excited over how many days there are left before I get to leave Singapore~
ANTI-PARANOID BITCHES

By the way, today’s Friday the 13th.
Good luck and Good bye everyone :>

won’t be posting often?
Guess so.

Good bye my love. :>