shishaaaa

Shingz.

I don’t really care lol

gotta start now :(

When I’m home alone I just can’t stop myself.

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Fucking pissed/irritating/lonely/sad/angry.

Can’t pinpoint.
Goodbye mutherfuckers!

in a state of self loathing

Leaning over the toilet
Puking up my self esteem
Along with any
chance of something better.

I can feel my heart ceasing
And my mind racing;
Thoughts scaring me, only because so truthful.

Now, collapsing to the ground, half
Unaware of the music and blankets
Around where I now lay. The world
Is spinning and I can’t stand to my
Feet without falling another
Step from weakness.

Keeping this all hidden
Deep within, never to be
Truly known. For it is mine,
My escape from guilt and
Tears. My life, my ending.

this is just a fragmentary part of my life

Nearly snapped last night cause mom was frustrating me so terribly.
She has good intentions, I know that. She just wants to help. Heck.

I don’t know what to think or do anymore. For the past couple days I’ve been wanting to cry my eyes out. My heart just wants to rip itself out from my chest. There’s so much happiness happening around me, it touching, but it also breaks my heart. I can’t remember the last time I was looked at with appreciation by others. And perhaps there was a few I recall, but… let’s not talk about it.

……………………………………….

And love?! AUGH!

……………………………………….

I’m really under a lot of pressure. My mind is going 500mph and that’s fucking fast.
But I’m not showing it.
I need a hug. I need someone to get me a tissue because I’m crying a lot. These seem like very pathetic things to cry over, and you’re right. But this isn’t all. There are so many things I can’t post that are tearing my heart apart. Everything is just piling over another. I don’t need people to feel sorry for me, because no one did anything wrong. I just needed to get this out on some kind of document……………….

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Sorry but i needed to unwind. Goodbye.

i have a lot to say but i’m too tired too speak of it right now

Didn’t go to school today. Tomorrow’s e learning. Thank god.
Went out with jm, ly, joy to chong pang to get their hair fixed.
After that went to meet lemuel for kbox at amk.

:)

FEP

pissed

YOU CAN ALWAYS PUSH THE BLAME TO ME. OH! I VOLUNTEERED TO BE BLAMED.

Just because I’m your daughter doesn’t mean that you can always blame me for something so insignificant/something that I didn’t deliberately do.
…

I am feeling lonely, hyper, angry and drained at the same time for today.
I can’t find a way to describe it properly and logically so heck with it.

Loneliness is a strange thing. It implies that you are alone…

But I’m not. I have many dear friends. I more often have to search for solitude than companionship. But still I am lonely.